The Petersons Crazy Life!

8 more weeks!

2012-01-30T20:48:00.000-08:00

Real quick about my last post I just want to tell Ka and Tia thanks for commenting on it. You guys made me feel a lot better. I was just going to comment on it but wasn't sure you would see it so I thought I would just thank you here. I love both of you and I am very thankful to call both of you my friend and my family.
I have 8 more weeks to my due date. It might actually be less because I had Caitlynn at 37 weeks (for medical reason) but you never know for sure. I am so excited. I am excited to maybe not feel like an 80 year old woman. I am excited to see what she looks like. I am excited to have another kid that I am able to raise. I am just pretty excited! But I am also scared. I am scared I won't be able to handle two. I am scared that I won't give both of them the attention they deserve. I also kind of feel like I am letting Caitlynn down for some reason and like she needs more time alone. I then look at it that my other kids won't get that comfort of just them and she will be ok but it still makes me feel a little scared. I am also a little scared we won't get everything done. We are working on our living space right now and granted its not that bad because we have been getting better with cleaning. Its just to me it seems like there is so much to do. I also need to go to the shed and get all the little clothes out and I have to go through tons of boxes because they are all mixed together. I guess we also need to work on the organizing thing, it would probably help with a lot of things. I hope and pray we get it done. Its just a little hard when I can barley move. Thankfully I do have a husband that helps and does a lot of things lately and I am grateful for that. I just can't believe I have only 8 weeks or less to get all this done! I want the time to go by fast because I am ready to meet her but at the same time I still want a little more time to get everything together, not sure if that makes sense. Anyways just wanted to write down my feelings. I am sure everything will work out and things will happen the way they are suppose to be. I just can't believe its almost time!!

Pregnancy

2012-01-28T11:12:00.000-08:00

Once again I am going to use my blogger to rant. I am just having such a hard time. Don't get me wrong I am grateful I am pregnant and that I am able to have children. I know there are so many out there that wish they could do this but can't and that makes me super sad. I am also thankful that my baby is healthy and I have a wonderful support system. I just don't get why I have to have such a hard time. With Caitlynn I was sick almost until the very end and that was awful. With this pregnancy I wasn't sick really at all and I thought hey this is going to be easy. Well its not. For some reason my body is having a hard time. Its in constant pain and can barley walk. This baby likes to lay super low which is a whole different experience that hurts more then words can say. I have two more months left and I am already bigger then I was with Caitlynn, not sure how I am going to stretch anymore, and not sure how I am going to keep moving. I know I shouldn't whine and complain its just so hard. I wish the next two months will come by fast because I am done but I know its important for her to stay in as long as possible and that is what I am going to do. OK thanks for letting me rant. I know I shouldn't and its annoying, but thanks for listening anyways.

Resolutions!

2012-01-04T12:18:00.001-08:00

This year is a little different then other years. Usually my main goal is to lose weight and yes this is something I would like to do in the next few months but it is not a main thing for me right now.
This year I really want to change the person I am. I hate the person I am and I think the biggest reason is my attitude. I need to have a better attitude about everything. This year I really want to work on being a better person.
Also I really want to be a better mother. I feel like I am not the best one right now and its probably because I am so hard on myself. This year I will be a mother of two kids and that thought terrifies me. I am the person that teaches them and helps them grow and I am scared I will do it all wrong.
I also want to be a better wife. My husband is amazing and I do not feel like I do enough to show my love to him. I need to treat him better and show him how much I appreciate him.
Another thing I want to do is be a better person spiritually. Right now I feel like I am a Sunday Mormon. I go to church and I do my calling but thats about it. I need to get better at this. Not only for me but for my family. I need to teach my kids by example how to live the gospel. I also want to be with my husband forever and I won't let something like me being lazy stop that.
There are many things I will like to change and there are many ways I can do these things. I just need to do them and quit saying I will do them. No excuses!
I really am going to start using this Blog a lot more too. Only because I think it will help me get my feelings out a bit more since I do not have many people that understand me. That way it doesn't eat me alive, if that makes sense.
I really hope this year I can become the person I want to be and not the person I am because I am to lazy to change it. Its up to me to change myself.

2011

2011-12-31T10:03:00.000-08:00

I can't believe this year is already over!! It seemed like it just started. I won't say this year was amazing but it also wasn't bad. It was just kind of there. A few things happened this year but it wasn't as crazy as our life is usually which is fine with me.

Caitlynn has grown so much over this last year. She still changes every day. She is miss jabber jaws now even though you don't know what shes saying half the time. It is getting a little clearer though. She is super independent and has to do everything herself and in her own way. She has almost mastered how to put her clothes and shoes on by herself. I love how she is very set in her ways. If you move her cup at the table a few inches she will move it back right to where she wants it. She can be very mean sometimes and I can tell the 2s are going to be a challenge. At the same time she is very sweet and sensitive. She gets upset if something sad happens in a movie and I can't even take her to the doctors with me because she thinks them taking my blood pressure is going to kill me. She also loves to give you hugs and kisses. Even though sometimes those hugs and kisses can be a little violent at times. :) She is the best little girl in the world and I loved to watch how much she has changed this last year. I am excited to see the new things she does this up and coming year.

Daniel has gotten a lot done over this last year. He has finished his Associates at the University of Phoenix. Which I am so proud of him for getting that done. He still works at Wal Mart but is studying to take the National certification and then State for Pharm Tech and hopes to get a job as that soon. He is also hoping to start Weber State in the summer to take some of hes classes he needs for Pharmacy school. He is the hardest worker and the best husband and father. He loves to spend lots of time with Caitlynn. She also is a big daddys girl so that helps. I am so happy I have someone so amazing to spend forever with.
I haven't done much this year. I am still in school and still have tons more to go. I sometimes wonder why I am going to school but I have already learned so much and love the things I have learned. I am still doing photography even if its not taking off the way I would hope thats ok because I love doing it. I had a job for a short time this year as a waitress and came to learn that being a mom and working is something I cannot handle. I have tired to help my family finacially since then but it never seems to work out. I have come to the decision that I am suppose to be home even if me having a job would help us a little more. Being a stay at home mom is the most rewarding beyond anything else. I love being able to spend every day with Caitlynn. Its one of the best blessings ever.

Even though this year hasn't been totally exciting something exciting has happened. We found out we are going to be added to our wonderful family. It will be another girl and her name is going to be Kairi (kye-ree) I have to admit I am terrified of having two kid and both girls and I pray that I can make it work. I am almost to my 3rd trimester and super excited. Pregnancy and me do not get a long lol. Thank goodness I haven't been super sick like I was with Caitlynn. This one is all about the pain. Even though most days I feel like an 80 year old woman because I can't even get up off a couch very well I am very thankful. I am not sure what this new baby is going to bring and I am sure there will be lots of challenges I am sure together and with the Lord we will get it worked out. I am so excited to meet her in a few months. I love her already and am truly blessed.
Another things that have happened this year is me and Daniel celebrated 5 years together. I can't believe its been that long. I love that I blessed to be with such a wonderful man and that it will last forever. He helps me through everything and he is my biggest support.
This coming year I am looking forward to all the changes I am sure will happen. I am going to start potty training Caitlynn, Kairi will be here around March sometimes, and I really think this might be the year we get our own place. Also with Daniel starting a real University that he has to go to will be a hard transition but we will deal with it some how. I hate that life is going by so fast but I love watching all the changes.
I wish you all the best for 2012 and I hope that it is a good year for you.

Amusing!

2011-11-23T23:20:00.000-08:00

I decided maybe I should use this more. Hmm maybe. Like I said I say so much on Facebook everyone knows all the new information. I just thought I would share this picture because its me down 13 pounds.

Doesn't everyone look like this when they loose weight. I know I know I am pregnant but it blows my mind. I mean with Caitlynn I lost 20 pounds and then only gained 8 back my whole pregnancy. But I haven't been super sick like I have with Caitlynn. I haven't really been sick at all, and I feel like all I do is sit around and eat. Just something thats amusing I guess.

Talking!

2011-09-10T21:33:00.001-07:00

Sometimes I wish I had someone to talk to that understood the things I am going through but I don't know anyone that would understand! It's a little frustrating.

Thinking.

2011-09-07T13:00:00.000-07:00

I am thinking about deleting my blog. I never write on it and it just kind of sits here. Why don't I write on it more? Well I like to do a lot of Facebook status so everything that happens everyone know already about since they are friends with me on Facebook. Does that make sense? What do you guys think? Should I just keep it for when I feel like writing? Hmm not sure what to do here.

Day 09- A Song That You Can Dance To

2011-06-17T23:45:00.000-07:00

I haven't been able to do this one because a lot of songs make me want to dance. If it has a beat most likely I will be "dancing". Well this song came on my Itunes and I went hey this song always makes me dance. So here it is! Enjoy!

Day 08 - A Song That You Know All The Words To

2011-05-26T13:06:00.000-07:00

Ok I pretty much know the words to lots of songs! I am pretty good at lyrics. I decided to go with this song though. I love this musical and know the words to all the songs but this song is one of my very favorites. I loved that I have had a chance to see this musical and hope I can again one day! Best musical EVER! This song is amazing!

Day 07 - A Song That Reminds You Of A Certain Event

2011-05-25T10:37:00.000-07:00

This is going to sound strange but this song reminds me of when I gave birth to Caitlynn. Why might you ask? Well that morning I had a doctors appointment to just check up on Caitlynn. This song was popular then and on the way it was on the radio. I was "dancing" in my car the best I could with a huge belly and with being in the car. While doing this the thought came to me. I think tonight is going to be a good night. Well after seeing my midwife she said Caitlynn was losing weight because she had no room to grow and there wasn't really any fluid around her. So she sent me straight to the hospital. That night I had Caitlynn so it was a good night!

Day 06 - A Song That Reminds You Of Somewhere

2011-05-24T12:03:00.000-07:00

This song reminds me of the Anniversary Inn in Logan. That might sound weird let me explain. The Anniversary Inn is where Daniel and I went on our honeymoon and we listen to this song a lot for some reason there. The TV had a program where you could watch music videos and we listen to this song about 3 times. Why? I am not sure. That is why it reminds me of Anniversary Inn lol.

People That Take Pictures.

2011-05-22T15:51:00.000-07:00

I do not know what is wrong with me lately I use to look at site that advertise for pictures and think "Oh man these look so good." Now all I can do is criticizethem. I know I am not the best photographer. I do not consider myself a professional and usually feel bad that I charge people because I do not think I am good enough but everyone said I should. That being said I seriously do not know why some people pay others tons of money for crappy pictures. Sorry I was looking at tons of sites lately thinking WTF what kind of pictures are these. There is tons of people that think just because they have a camera they can become a photography. I do believe you can learn to become better but some people I do not think quite understand it. Ok I might just be rambling and you guys might be thinking shes doing the same thing. I just wanted to type the frustration out even though I am not sure if I made any sense lol

Pictures!

2011-05-06T11:23:00.000-07:00

I just took some for my mom and I feel like they are so good! I don't mean to toot my own horn I just feel like I am getting better and better and I am actually starting to look professional! I am so excited! I might be wrong but they look so good to me! I love taking pictures! I am so glad I decided to do this!

Want to see more?! I have some on my Facebook page at Amped Up Photos
In other news not much has happened and I only lost on point on my assignment! Not bad I usually lose points (well in this class) I do have a 92% with a week and half left so thats not bad! Then on to Basic Mathematic yuck! Oh and the teacher did leave my a note on the assignment. This is what he said: "Your explanation is correct, but requires understanding of not only capacity and length but how you are specifically using them. I understand what you are saying, but I already know what depth and volume are." I guess I kind of understand him now. Anyways that is all and I hope to try to update you more and maybe finish the 30 day music thing! Thanks for reading this! Your the best!

Update On Last Post!

2011-05-04T11:06:00.000-07:00

My teacher hasn't said anything to me but a lot of my classmates are saying stuff like "I think you answered this question perfectly couldn't of said it better myself." I am sure in a few days when I get a grade for it he will leave a note on my grade and take a few points off. I guess we will just have to wait and see. I just wanted to let you all know in case you were curious!

My Angry Issues.

2011-04-28T21:58:00.000-07:00

I have always had anger issues and I take most things to heart so a lot of things make me angry. I used to express those emotions all the time but I am trying to become more understand and be nicer. Well in my class I couldn't take it and I think I might of made it worse for me. For some reason I feel like my instructor doesn't like me very much and he says a lot of things to me that really do not make sense. Well I kind of went off on him. I will explain. I have to do discussion questions its pretty normal with online school.
The question I had to answer was this:Using examples, describe the difference between depth and volume. Is it possible to have a sense of volume without a sense of depth? And conversely, is it possible to have a sense of depth without a sense of volume?
My responds: The difference between depth and volume is volume is capacity and depth is length. For example; if you look at a square box volume would be the space inside the box and depth would be how far the box went back. It is impossible to have a sense of volume without depth because depth is what makes up the volume. You can however have depth and not volume if you do not think about what is in the depth.
It was very simple but get the question answered.
My instructor says:Your answer is simple, perhaps a bit too simple. I would like you to describe the difference between depth and volume again. What you have written is correct, but not too clear. Think about trying to explain the difference to a class room of 1st graders or someone who has no artistic understanding. Really break it down and explain depth and volume with examples so anyone can understand.
What? Seriously? How freakin complicated do think this subject is? I get stuff like this all the time and ignore it because I think its stupid well this time I couldn't
I responded: I really do not understand what you are saying. Yes my answer is simple but it explains what depth and volume is and there really isn't much to it. If I was explaining it to a class room of 1st graders I would still do it the same. I work with kids every Sunday and I have one of my own and know they do not have much of an attention span so I would get the point a cross as quick and simple as I could, which I did. Also if I wanted to explain it to someone with no artistic understanding I think this would work. Even with out artistic understanding I think everyone knows what a square box is. I know I will probably loose points for this but I do not know what to say. Depth and volume is not a hard concept to understand.
I probably took it to far and I probably shouldn't of done that but oh well can't take it back now. I guess I am not getting an A in this class!

Life.

2011-04-21T12:01:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking a lot about how this isn't exactly how I wanted my life to go. This morning though dancing around the kitchen with Caitlynn I realized it IS exactly everything I could hope for. Yes we do not have a place of our own, but we have each other. I have a perfect family and could not ask for more. Ok maybe I can and that would be to add to this perfect family ;) I know one day we will be on our own and have a place we will have all to our own. Sometimes I feel like we will live here forever but I know thats not the case. You know what I need to do? I need to put more faith in the Lord and I know that. I know with his help all things are possible and I need to remember that all the time and believe in it more. Sometimes I struggle but don't we all? I know that this is how my life is suppose to be and I love all of it even if its not what my plans have been. I have a wonderful husband that loves me for me, that takes care of me and my daughter and works his butt off at work and school to support us. I have an amazing daughter that even though she drives me crazy I couldn't imagine life without her. I love when she sings or dances. When she just randomly gives me hugs and kisses because I know she loves me. I also have wonderful family members and friends I am sure you know who are. I will one day have more children to love and teach that I am sure I will love just as much as Caitlynn. I am also sure Caitlynn one day will be a great big sister. I just have an overpower feeling that life is going to turn around for us soon as long as we put faith in the Lord. I am really blessed!

Day 5: A Song That Reminds Me Of Someone

2011-04-05T10:18:00.000-07:00

Well its pretty obvious who this song reminds me of. Just the most wonderful beautiful little girl ever!!! I love Caitlynn Suzanne Peterson! She is just so wonderful and I am so grateful for her! She is a great blessing! She drives me crazy most days but that's ok because I love her and couldn't see life without her!!
In My Daughter's Eyes- Martina McBride!

Day 4: A Song That Makes You Sad.

2011-04-04T21:09:00.000-07:00

Yeah I have no idea!!! Any songs that make you guys sad?

Day 3: A Song That Makes You Happy

2011-04-03T23:29:00.000-07:00

This song makes me EXTREMELY happy!! It's mine and Daniels song! He is my everything! My life is wonderful because of him!! I love him more then words can say and my love grows for him more and more everyday. I am so thankful for him and all he has helped me through. Hes just amazing!
Looking Through Your Eyes- LeAnn Rimes

Day 2: Your Least Favorite song

2011-04-02T22:17:00.000-07:00

I have quite a few songs I do not like. Mostly they are stupid songs that get stuck in my head FOREVER!!!!!! Like the stupid Bird Is the Word song or The Gambler! YUCK!
I decided to go with Particle Man By They Might Be Giants! What a stupid song!!

School Change!

2011-04-01T14:40:00.001-07:00

I changed my degree! From a Bachelors to an Associates. Now school will only be 4 years instead of 8 since I am going half time!! Its not going to affect anything I have done so far! I just didn't think I needed a Bachelors when really I am just doing this for me! I think its awesome I was able to switch with no problems!
I start a new class Monday and it looks way confusing I am going to have to actually read the material this time! I have to do a lot of crazy designs maybe I will put some up when I finish them so you can all see what they look like :D
I love school it makes me happy! (most days)

Day 1: Your Favorite Song

2011-04-01T14:37:00.000-07:00

This was a hard one because I have a lot of favorite songs!!! But this one is AWESOME!! It has an amazing message! I can really relate to this song!!
Sing-My Chemical Romance

30 Days of Music

2011-04-01T14:33:00.000-07:00

This is another 30 day thing but its music! I am trying to be more happy and what makes me happy? MUSIC! I think its going to be awesome!
day 01 - your favorite song
day 02 - your least favorite song
day 03 - a song that makes you happy
day 04 - a song that makes you sad
day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone
day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
day 09 - a song that you can dance to
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 - a song from your favorite band
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 - a song that describes you
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 - a song from your childhood
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Happy.

2011-04-01T14:28:00.001-07:00

I am going to try to be more happy. Happy with my life, happy with who I am and happy with my choices. Hopefully I can do this because lately I haven't been. I get told by people I suck at what I love to do, I am a horrible mom, I don't clean or cook and I am plain lazy. I need to learn to ignore what people say and try to change those thoughts in my head. I know these things are not true but its hard to keep telling yourself that when you get told differently. Like I said I hope I can do this and maybe the posts on here will be a little more cheerful.

30 Days of Truth

2011-04-01T14:26:00.000-07:00

Ok I decided I do not want to do this! The reason I haven't been doing it is because I feel I might make people mad at me, or offend someone. I know this is my blog and I have all right to do and say what I think but I really do not want more people mad at me for silly reasons. I just thought I would let you all know that.

The Last Post

2011-03-29T09:27:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to tell everyone that my last post was not meant for anyone to feel sorry for me or anything else. I just wanted to write down how I feel because thats what the blog is for. I just wanted to mention that.

Easy Person To Hate

2011-03-28T23:59:00.000-07:00

I guess I am an easy person to hate. Here I thought I was likable, but I guess not. Two people in the last month have deleted me off of Facebook. Usually I would not care because Facebook isn't all that important but these people are suppose to be family. What did I do to deserve this? I have no idea. All I know is I am tired of feeling like the outcast. I am tired of feeling worthless because of the way people act towards me. I thought I was a good person. Maybe I am not. Maybe I deserve it for some reason or another. I don't know. All I know is I am tired of crying.

I Love To See The Temple!

2011-03-25T11:16:00.000-07:00

The temple is truly an amazing place! Daniel has been having a hard time lately because hes messed up twice in two different health care classes and did not get an A. The one class he got a B and the other he got a C. The last class where he got a C he was pretty upset because he had an A but turned in the wrong final and for zero points on it. The teacher told him he was sorry but the school policy is you cannot turn anything in after the class is over. At this point he was pretty upset and started thinking maybe he shouldn't be doing this in the first place. Of course I told him he was crazy but he just felt bad. Then he started thinking how am I going to go to real school (he will have to do this before pharmacy school and pharmacy school) work and spend time with my family. I told him we would be OK. He was still upset. He's dad gave him a blessing and told him he would be alright at this point I think he was feeling better but I felt like the temple would help. We planned to go the next day (which was yesterday). That day Daniel was a lot better because he talked to his academic counselor and she told him he would be fine he was an amazing student and everything would be OK. I don't know why he didn't listen to me when I told him! She also told him when he finishes with The University of Phoenix he should see about being an instructor, of course he loved that idea so its something he might do while he goes to pharmacy school. Even though he was feeling better we still went to the temple because we do not go enough. On the way I said maybe one day we can do sealing because we never have. But we decided we wanted to go to a session this time. When we got to the temple the front desk scanned our recommends and then stopped us. I thought oh man did I do something wrong! What happened? He asked us to go up and do sealing. I thought OK that was weird. I guess that's where we needed to be. I love being in the temple and I think it helped both of us. The only bad thing while doing sealing I started thinking I have lots of family members that have passed and they are not sealed together. I was told in my patriarchal blessing that my family is waiting for ME to do their work so I started feeling really guilty. I haven't done one thing for anyone! They are up there wait and wait and I'm just sitting around. I guess I better do it. Another thing I thought about after I helped a daughter be sealed to her parents. I will never get to do that. My parents were never married. I would love to be sealed to at least my mom but I do not think she will ever go to the temple. I mean I could wish because I want all my family to go there but I do not think it will happen. She's to stubborn. It made me feel like I was all alone. Daniel later reminded me I have him and Caitlynn and our future children. That did help me feel better. Anyways like I said the temple is an AMAZING place and I need to go there more often. Especially to help my family. I am so great for all the blessing I have and I am grateful for the Lord in my life. I would be lost with out him.

Website!

2011-03-24T15:12:00.001-07:00

I made my own website for my photography "business". I am so proud of myself! Go check it out and let me know what you think.
ampedupphotos.com

30 day thing!

2011-03-17T00:00:00.000-07:00

Sorry I am a little behind! I am not sure if anyone really reads it anyways. If you do I will try to continue tomorrow!

Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.

2011-03-12T17:15:00.000-08:00

I think the one thing I hope I NEVER have to do is attend one of my kid's funeral or Daniels. I know everyone dies but I do not want that to happen. Especially my children no parent should have to lay their kid to rest even though it does happen I pray it doesn't happen to me. I do not think I could deal with Daniel not being around so I hope I go first when we are really old or Jesus just comes that would be good too!

Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.

2011-03-09T23:38:00.000-08:00

There are many things I hope to do in my life. Mostly its things like going to Disney World and traveling. The one thing I really want to do is have my own studio! Oh my gosh I would love that! I dream about that almost as much as I dream about us having our own place. I think it would be great and then I can take more pictures in the winter because I can take pictures inside! Doesn't that sound wonderful?! Oh man I think so! I hope one day to get a lot of clients and take pictures all the time! Sounds good to me :D

Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.

2011-03-08T10:23:00.000-08:00

To be honest I do not think I have to forgive anyone for anything. I am a usually forgiving person when it comes to other people, just not about myself. The only thing I can think of is my real father. My whole life I have probably seen him 4 times. He would see his other kids but never me. Well about 2 1/2 years ago he died. I am never going to get to know him, hes never going to get to know my kids. Even though I am sure if he was alive he wouldn't know my kids any ways. I just need to forgive him more then I have for not being around. At least I always had some great men in my life growing up and at least one of them stayed around.

Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.

2011-03-07T14:15:00.000-08:00

I have to forgive myself for the mistakes that I have made in the past and learn to forgive myself for the mistakes I will make in the future. I am not perfect and no one is so I shouldn't think I need to compare myself to someone else. I need to learn to love and to forgive myself because everyone makes mistakes.

Day 2: Something you love about yourself.

2011-03-06T11:11:00.001-08:00

This one is quite hard since like I said yesterday I really do not think I have a lot of good things about me. If I had to choose something I would say I think I have good people skills. A lot of times people come to me for someone to talk to or for advice. This has happened many times in my life and I have no idea why. I do not think that I help a lot of times but I guess I must be doing something right if people keep asking me. I have really thought about being like a psychiatrist because I love talking to people and helping them in their troubles, but I am to lazy to go to school that long lol. I really do hope I help people with whatever is going on in their lives and that people keep coming to me to talk to them.

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.

2011-03-05T10:41:00.000-08:00

Hmm what do I hate about myself?! Well there are a lot of things. In my mind set I am a horrible person that can't do anything right. So I guess what I hate most of all is I have no confidence in myself and I have no self esteem. I think maybe that is why I give up on a lot of things because I just feel like I am not good enough. I also think I am always going to fail or I suck at everything I do. That involves church, school and life in general. Every time I go to the Temple I think to myself I'm not good enough to be here. I think maybe that is why I do not go a lot. I also hate the way I look and always compare myself to other people which I shouldn't do. I guess I just need to remember a line from a Pink song that goes, "You're so mean when you talk about yourself you are wrong change the voices in your head make them like you instead." Maybe one day I can learn to have a little more confidence in myself and self esteem.

30 Days of Truth

2011-03-04T08:46:00.000-08:00

I am stealing this idea from Chelsea because I do not blog that much because our lives are pretty boring. So I thought I would do this and see how it goes. Be for warned that you might not like what I have to say but if you have different opinions that is ok but I dont want to hear them because they just upset me. I hope you all enjoy the next 30 days!

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like poopy.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days.
Day 14: A hero that has let you down.
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs.
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself.

This Story Really Upset Me!

2011-02-24T12:30:00.000-08:00

Program working to save babies born addicted to drugs - ksl.com

I know people have a hard time with drugs I have seen it happen to many people I care about but it just makes me sad that children are being born into situations like this. I just do not get it. I know everyone has their rights to do whatever they want to their bodies but to harm a baby is just wrong. Also I've seen a lot of people that can not have children and I was scared I might be one of them but am thankful I am not but it makes me sad to see these women harm their babies when so many women would love to have children and cannot. I really hate the world we live in and I hate that Satan has such a strong hold on it. I know this happens all over and it makes me really upset. I just pray that the Lord will help these little babies and the mothers so they can see they are harming babies and it is not right. Drug problem or not! You can get over it I have seen it happen. Also if you have something negative to say about this post please keep it to yourself. I am tired of all the negative comments I have been getting lately because of something I believe in. Yes everyone is allowed their own opinions I just do not want to hear it.

Laura Winslow Photography's Great Giveaway.

2011-02-07T18:06:00.000-08:00

Ka sent me a link to this giveaway and I am glad she did. It looks awesome and I would love to have some more stuff for photography. I mean I don't take a lot of pictures yet but I would love to build up some stuff just in case one day I do. If you like take pictures you should look at this giveaway there is tons of vendors and tons of prizes you can win. Even if you aren't a photographer there is still cute things you can win that your kids can wear. And when I say cute I mean CUTE! I so hope I win this giveaway you find out who wins on my birthday and it would be a great birthday present!
So check out this giveway its awesome.
http://laurawinslowphotography.com/blog/2011/02/07/2600-61-shops-1-winner-the-awesome-photog-love-giveaway-from-laura-winslow-photography/comment-page-23/#comment-50151

Things Change.

2011-01-27T12:29:00.001-08:00

Sorry I haven't wrote for a while. There hasn't been to much to write about and its been pretty crazy with me trying to keep this place clean, taking care of Caitlynn, trying to work out, and going to school. I also have been trying to stay off the computer and do other things even though that isn't working out the best. Nothing is new for me and my little family. We are all still doing the same things. I try my best to do everything at home, Daniel works, goes to school and hopes to find a better job and Caitlynn is crazy and growing and growing.
Lately we have been hanging out with people a lot and I really liked it for some reason I love to be around people and even Daniel said, "You seem a lot happier lately." And I was. But like everything it seems like me its time for things to change. I'm not talking about not being happy I am always going to try to be happy because that is a good thing. What I am talking about is hanging out. More and more everyday for the last week or so I feel like me and Daniel are drifting away from the people we hang out with. Which I guess in its self it isn't a bad thing. It just kind of makes me sad a little. I am not good with change. I should know its going to happen me and Daniel are so different then other people we hang out with. We are married, and we have a child. We can't just decided to go some where one day because we can't just up and leave Caitlynn and sometimes its not the best to take her with us. What I am trying to say is I am starting to see yes you will have friends sometimes more then other times but they aren't going to be your "best friends" forever. People change, situations change and some people just grow apart. I look back on the times I have said to some one, "we are going to be best friends forever" and I have said it to a lot of people. Most of them I don't talk to or hardly talk to them at all and only see them sometimes. It is hard to not have friends or your friends change over the years and its hard for me to accept it because like I said I love being around people. But do you know whats not going to change? Me and Daniel and that is all that matters. I can tell him that we are going to be best friends forever because we really are! People are going to come and people are going to go but hes going to be by my side forever! To me that is the greatest blessing I can ever receive. I couldn't ask for a better best friend.
Sorry this post is long and ranting but its just one of those things I needed to get out. So thank you once again for listening to me and I hope everyone that reads this one day they can find someone they consider their best friend and can really spend forever with them.

It Hurts!

2011-01-08T12:10:00.000-08:00

It really hurts me to find out someone isn't who you thought they were. This past year I have lost two people I thought were my best friends. Both of them have helped me through hard times in my life and now both of them are gone. What really hurts the most is they both said I am a bad mother. For some reason that hurts me to the very core. I thought I was an ok mother certainly not the greatest but I figured I was doing ok. Yes I don't have a place of my own, yes I am not the best at cleaning but improving everyday,and yes I don't eat a lot of home cooked meals but that I am also getting better at. Even with those facts I thought I was doing ok. Am I not? Am I doing something wrong? Because in the last year two people have told me I am doing something wrong. I don't know. What I do know is I don't need people in my life that are going to bring me down that is why I pushed them out. So right now I am hurt but I hope things will get better in time. Just like I hope I get better in time. Ok now I am done ranting. Thanks for listening.

Baby Hungry.

2011-01-05T10:54:00.000-08:00

Yep I am going to admit it I am baby hungry. I don't know why but I am. I know this isn't the time to have another one for many reason. I just want one. Caitlynn is just so big and is growing more and more every day and a lot of people I know are having babies and it makes me miss it. I know I won't be having a baby for awhile but that doesn't mean I can't want one. There are a few things that need to be done before I can have another. One is we need our own place where there is a little bit more room. Two I need to loose some weight that way it will be healthier for me and the baby. Last but not least Caitlynn still needs my full attention. I need to help her grow up a little more. She is the only one that will be the only child and I need to appreciate it a little more. Does that make sense? So yes I really want another baby and probably will for awhile but I know it's not time for one.

New Camera!

2011-01-05T10:45:00.000-08:00

I am so happy I finally got a new camera. I got a Nikon D3100. It is so amazing. I also got two lens, a memory card, and a bag. When I got my money from school I was so happy I could finally do this. I was going to get a Nikon D3000 from Wal Mart but it wasn't in stock so I was really upset. I mean yeah I could drive to Layton to get one but I really didn't want to do that. Well we got Colette and went to try Sams Club they didn't have one either. Colette suggested we should go to Inkleys to see if they had any good deals. Well they had the D3000 but Daniel and me decided that the D3100 would be better for me. We also found out that they are not making the D3000 any more and that is why we couldn't find it any where else. They are replacing it with the D3100. I didn't have enough money for the camera and all the stuff but because I have a wonderful husband he asked for a payment plan. Which we were lucky enough to get. I paid half of the cost with my school money and then the rest we put on this credit card type deal. We aren't credit card people but if you pay it off before 9 months you don't have any interest which is a good deal. So in 9 months we have to pay off $450. Which we don't think that is that bad. It was like it was meant to be. I am so happy! I am so happy to start this part of my life and I can't wait to see where it takes me.

Holidays.

2011-01-05T10:13:00.001-08:00

I know this is a little late but I have been busy trying to keep things clean and get things done. So this post might be a little long but I think that's ok too.
First thing I ended my first class around December 18th or something like that. I got an A. So happy! I mean it was an easy class but I want to try to have a 4.0 for as long as I can so it helps :D. I start my 2nd class on January 10th. It's not going to be exciting. It's Computer Literacy. I tried to pass out of it but I didn't know stuff about Photoshop or Illustrator so I didn't, but I guess its ok to get a refresher course. I kind of wish I could take more then 1 class at a time but I know one class at a time will be enough for me with Caitlynn.
Christmas was a lot of fun. We didn't have a big Christmas but that's ok because we had each other and that's all that matters. Caitlynn loved it. We woke up at 7 and got Caitlynn and the parents up to open presents. She wasn't sure what to think of it. She was confused why we would give her a toy and then take it away. lol After that we got ready for everyone to come over for Christmas breakfast. This year was our turn to host it. I think that it went ok. Jenn and Dustin did the funniest thing to us though they gave us a big box and inside it said "let's make a deal." It told us we could of choose to keep the green gelatin or go for box 1 or 2. We went with box 2 and in it was coco packets and a book and in the bottom of the box it said, "You lose try again." So we went with box 1 and in it was another box and another box and in that was a can of coco in the can of coco was a gift card. All these boxes were wrapped in duck tape and Jenn took away Daniel's knife. It was so funny and a great idea. After that we got ready and went to my brothers dads house who has been like my dad my whole life. We don't get to see them enough and it was good to see them. They are very nice and generous people. Shawn said that he is going to help Daniel get a job on base because on base its not about what you know its about who you know. We are praying really hard that Daniel will get this job. It starts out at 18-20 bucks an hour. That would help us so much and we would be able to finally be on our own and live our own lives. I think that will be good for us. So please pray for that. After Shawns we went to Grams. We ate dinner and right before we were about to open presents Caitlynn got really grumpy and wouldn't sleep plus she had a belly ache and a bad rash so we packed up all her presents and decided to open them the next day and went home. The next day she opened them and then we went to my Grandmas to open the presents at her house. So its like we had Christmas for two days. It was really nice and we are so blessed to have a great family in our lives. Even with all the presents and running around I still felt the true meaning of Christmas. I just love the Christmas season and the way it makes us feel.
The Monday after Christmas me, Daniel, Caitlynn and Grams went to the zoo because we weren't able to go on Christmas Eve like we usually do because Daniel had to work. It was a lot of fun and Caitlynn loved the animals. I am sure next year she will really love it.
New Years Eve we did the same thing we do every year. We got together has a family and celebrated Krystine's birthday, ate good food, and played air hockey. The only difference this year was we played Rock Band. It was a lot of fun and even though we do the same thing every year I still love it. My friend Kenzie decided to come over this year and that was a lot of fun. I am so glad that I have great friends. Poor Caitlynn was so tired by the end of the night, but she was a trooper and stayed up the whole time. Well she had to because I know for a fact she wouldn't go to sleep with everyone in the basement and her room right there so that is why she stayed up.
That's about all that has happened. I am so very blessed to have wonderful people in my life and to have a wonderful family. Now that the new year is here I am excited to see what happens this year. My resolutions for this year are the same as last year because I didn't do the best at them but I will try again. I hope you all had a great holiday season and I hope this new year is amazing for everyone.
FYI if you want to see pictures I am sure everyone is my friend on facebook and they are all on there.

Things Like This Makes Me Happy.

2010-12-17T22:03:00.000-08:00

I had to make a portfolio in my class today and these were the comments I received.

I loved your portfolio! Your photography is incredible, all the pictures look almost unreal, they are so good! I hope my photography will be as good as yours, eventually. You had a really good portfolio, though. It was nice and simple. I liked your statements too.

Afton,
Your pictures are great. I really enjoyed your portfolio and wish you the best of luck.
I have a feeling we'll meet again in our classes!
If we do, I'll see you there.

Your portfolio looks amazing! The detail, the pictures, everything. I love it :)
Great job. You take really beautiful pictures. I really like the nature one of the sky,
and the one of the lady in the red dress. So awesome (^_^) lol

Great job!! You take amazing pictures and your family is beautiful. The thing I love most of all is how you capture the spirit of nature in your photos. I love being outside and letting the beams of the sun hit me. Your pictures make this world look like paradise!!! I am amazed!! Keep doing what you do best and you will be successful.

Really liked your portfolio! Loved looking at all the pictures

These comments just made my day! So I figured I would share :D

The Past.

2010-12-06T23:23:00.000-08:00

You know that saying "Leave things in the past there is a reason they didn't make it to your future." Or something like that. I really have been missing the past lately. Not being single, not stupid high school but a certain person. I think its because of the time of year and I have so many Christmas memories with this person. I hate hearing songs come on and all I can think is I really miss her. I know its better this way. We both just grew up to be different people. All we did was clash and that wasn't good. But I can't help to think maybe I am just being silly. This person had been my best friend for so long and now we don't even talk anymore. I just want to say I am sorry I was stupid let's be friends again but I know that's not going to happen. Even if it did it would just end up like it has now. I don't know why I miss someone so much that was rude to me, hurt my feelings and made me feel like I didn't matter all the time. I don't understand how you can dislike someone at the same time of liking them. Does that make sense at all? I am sorry that this post is probably not making sense but I don't know how to describe how I am feeling. I guess I will just have to learn to live in the present and realize that things should be left in the past. But at the same time I know I will always have those memories in my head and I should think of all the good times and realize that if we did stay friends bad memories would of covered up the good ones. Like I always say "All things happen for a reason."

One Of Those Days.

2010-12-06T08:46:00.000-08:00

You know your going to have a great day when you look in your bank account and your already 18 bucks in the hole and you don't get paid for 4 more days. And when you do get paid you don't have enough to cover your bills! Why must life be this hard?

I Love Taking Pictures!

2010-12-04T21:50:00.001-08:00

I love taking pictures! I think its so much fun. Even though I feel like I am not that great at it and it seems everyone else is better then me I still love doing it. I love bringing joy to people with my pictures. I really do think people like the pictures I take of them and they aren't just saying they like them to be nice. They might hate them but they haven't told me they do that's good right?! I get so scared taking pictures too. The day before I freak out in my head trying to come up with ideas on what to do. During the shoot I am usually ok but then after I start panicking and start think what if they hate them. But like I said I do think I will get better and no one has said they hate them yet. I also love helping people out. Me and my family aren't very wealthy ok we aren't wealthy at all but when someone comes to me and asks me to take their family pictures and how much I charge I don't charge them tons of money because I know right now its hard for a lot of people and family pictures are important. I love the thanks you I get from saying pay me what ever you can and you don't have to pay me right away pay me when you can. It warms my heart! And if I never get paid for the pictures that's ok too just as long as they like them that's all I care about. I also love hearing "I love them! They are so good." Its like music to my ears and makes me grin from ear to ear. So even though I am not the best photographer I love that I am doing it and I love that I am learning more about it. It makes me happy.

Just In Case You Wanted To Know.

2010-12-01T21:22:00.000-08:00

I went to the doctor today ti figure out why I am having pains. To be honest I thought I was pregnant because my body was acting like it or I thought I had a cyst. Well I have neither. Everything is the way it should be. Machell thinks that it has something to do with my bladder and she gave me a HUGH list of food I should avoid and she said it might help with the pain. She also gave me crazy people pills. I don't really want people to know I have to take pills to be some what normal because I feel stupid that I need them but I figured its most likely going to get around anyways stuff like that always does. Oh well thats life! So maybe I won't have crazy person posts anymore. Thats good for you guys right?! :D Anyways I am going to take these pills and try to avoid the foods and go back in 4 weeks to see if its helping. I guess only time will tell. I just thought some people would like to know whats going on with me. Daniel and Caitlynn are still the same, AMAZING! Anyways thanks for your time :D

Riley Lynn Peterson.

2010-11-29T11:22:00.000-08:00

My son, my first, my beautiful boy.
The thought of you in my life brought me great joy.
The dreams of raising,playing and loving you I have had.
The indescribable excitement of being your dad.
And now upon the news you won't live.
Tears flow from my face and drop like a sieve.
Though I never met you. Comfort I still find,
For you live on in my heart soul and mind.
Now I look to the day when we shall meet.
To see you in perfection from your head to your feet.
I will love you forever that is my oath.
While I am on this earth, my heart beats for us both.
- Daniel Peterson
I can't believe its been two year since we lost Riley at 17 weeks. To be honest this year is a little better then last. Last year I just had Caitlynn and though it comforted me I still felt like I should of had a 6 month old and not a 1 month old. Don't get me wrong I love Caitlynn and I am so grateful I have her but it doesn't cover all the pain. I think the reason I feel the most pain today is because I feel like I didn't protect him. Me and Daniel decided we couldn't handle seeing him or holding him and to be honest I regret it. After I had him they just wrapped him in a towel and put him in a ice cream bucket thing. I feel bad about that. I feel like I shouldn't of let that happen. I should of saw him in real life and not just in pictures that the hospital took for me. I feel bad because they just threw him in the incinerator like he was trash. Which he wasn't he was my child! I know I can't do anything about it now. I just wish I did something back then. I don't know when a spirit enters the body but I believe it does as soon as the baby has a heart beat. How can a heart beat with out a spirit? How can babies move with out a spirit? So I truly believe Riley is up there waiting for me and Daniel. He is taking care of his sibling while they wait to come to this year. I could be wrong but I really feel in my heart that I am not. Daniel told me last night I shouldn't feel bad for never holding him because he knows I couldn't do it emotionally. He also said he thinks Riley understands and still loves us. I really hope that is true. Daniel had a dream a few weeks ago and he said he doesn't know if he was being weird or if it was a vision and he said he saw 5 beds and he thinks we will have 5 kids. I always thought 6 but then I realized we will have 6 kids but only 5 beds here on Earth because Riley won't need a bed here on Earth. I might be crazy too though. I am sorry this post is depressing and so was the last one. I promise I will try harder to look at the brighter things of life and not put sad posts.
Even though today is hard I am glad I have Caitlynn. I couldn't even imagine what today would be like if she wasn't here. I love her and I am grateful for her everyday. I think I better go and play with her while I have the chance since she is growing up so fast. I love Caitlynn Suzanne Peterson and Riley Lynn Peterson they are both my little angels!

Have To Let It Out Sometimes!

2010-11-22T14:43:00.000-08:00

I am EXTREMELY stressed! I don't understand an assignment that is due TODAY, I have to clean this mess that we live in, I have to make pie for tomorrow, take care of Caitlynn and try to stay sain! I feel like most of the time I have to do it all by myself. Don't get me wrong Daniel is great but he works all day (which gives us a little money so that's fine) and when he comes home he does his school work for the rest of the night! Which is fine I know its important but he never helps me around the house he barley helps with Caitlynn. And I know he tries his best but I am just stressed and feel like I'm just digging myself a deeper and deeper hole. Does that make sense? At this point I don't know why I'm going to school. It just adds more stress I doubt I will ever use my skills because it seems like no one wants me to take their pictures. I don't think my pictures are all that good to begin with! UGH! I hate stress! I know this sounds bad but I'm going to the doctor in about a week and I think I'm going to ask her to give me medicine to help me not be so stressed and not freaking out all the time! Is that bad of me? I feel kind of bad even saying that. I don't want to become someone that has to depend on medicine I just don't know what to do anymore. Oh man! Sorry once again I just need to get these things out! So just ignore my whining and raving. I'll try to be better tomorrow!

I am EXTREMELY blessed!

2010-11-19T15:01:00.000-08:00

I am sorry I haven't kept up with the whole thankful thing. Things have just been crazy with me going to school and taking care of Caitlynn. I'm not sure if I am going to finish out the rest of the month. But I just wanted to say I am thankful for all the blessing I receive every day. I am thankful that prayers are answered and that our Heavenly Father does listen to us. I am thankful for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and everything it offers and teaches me. I am extremely thankful for Daniel and Caitlynn. They are what life is all about. I am thankful I get to spend every day with my wonderful daughter. I am thankful for everyone in my family and the things they do for me and my family. I am also thankful for the few friends I do have. Things sometimes can be hard but I know that I can get through anything with everything I have. I hope I have learn to be thankful all year long and not just in November cause I have many things to be thankful for.

Thankful Day 14 & 15

2010-11-16T00:10:00.000-08:00

Instead of saying what I'm thankful for I thought I would share these two videos that touched my heart!

Thankful Day 13

2010-11-13T12:08:00.001-08:00

Today I'm thankful that I have a kid that still takes nap during the day. Sure its usually only one nap two if I'm lucky but I'm OK with that. Sometimes I use the nap time to clean or work out since its hard to do both when shes up. But sometimes I'm bad and I use it to take a nap myself. Which I think I'm going to do today since I didn't get a lot of sleep. I know one day I won't be able to get to take naps especially since Caitlynn is getting older (even though I don't want to admit it)so why not take advantage of it while I can. I know today was a short post but I'm tired so nap here I come :D

Thankful Day 12

2010-11-12T14:32:00.000-08:00

I'm thankful for nature. I love all the beautiful things of the Earth. I really don't have a favorite season cause there are wonderful things out of all of them. I love the rain and the flowers in the spring the green grass in the summer the beautiful leafs in the fall and the snow in the winter. I think its amazing the things the Lord has made for us. I love them all. Nature is just beautiful and I'm very thankful for all of it.

Thankful Day 11

2010-11-11T12:02:00.000-08:00

Today I'm thankful for the men and women who have died for our country to keep us all safe. I'm also thankful for the ones that serve today. I have a few in my own family that have been in wars and are now gone (not cause of the war). For example Pa (great grandpa) he died when I was 5 years old but hes still was one of the greatest men I knew. I have great memories with him and I wouldn't change them for the world. I know he served in a war but I'm not sure which one. Either way I'm glad he did. He is my guardian angel and always will be. I'm extremely thankful for the men and women that are protecting us right now. A lot of people think this war thing is stupid. I don't I know that its what is keeping us safe and free. I have people in my family that are currently serving and though I'm thankful for all of them I'm most thankful for Daryl. I think that's because hes the closest one to my heart. I miss him and his family everyday but I know what he is doing is extremely important. Thank you Daryl. I am also thankful for people that don't get much recognition and that is the spouses and kids of people in the military. That has to be very hard sometimes and its something I could never do. So I'm thankful for them that support our soldiers.
I hope you all are also thankful for the things that we have because its the people in the military that has helped all those things happen.

Thankful Day 10.

2010-11-10T20:27:00.000-08:00

I got into the Art Institute!Im way excited, but I didnt get enough student loans or grant money so I can only go part time if I dont want to pay any money out of pocket. I can change to a different plan so if things change I can do that. Plus its probably going to be easier taking one class at a time so I can still have my main focus on Caitlynn cause she whats most important.
Today Im very thankful for technology. That might be a silly thing to be thankful for but I am. I love that I can go to school all on the computer and still get to be home with Caitlynn, Im thankful that if I dont want to call and talk to someone I can text them (I dont like talking on the phone lol) Im thankful that even though Daryl and Ali are clear across the world we can still see them from time to time and many other cool things. I think technology is amazing and Im sure its just going to keep changing. Im not sure if I like that though lol. Im scared robots are going to take over the world or something. I would like it if technology stayed the way it was right now. I know thats not going to happen but hey maybe in the future there will be something that will be awesome!! Im not sure if I made any sense there. Oh well till next time. Remember count your blessings! :D

Thankful Day 7-9

2010-11-09T11:42:00.001-08:00

Sorry I missed some days I was trying to spend time with Daniel on his two days in a row off. He doesnt get two days off in a row very often and it was nice to spend that time with him and Caitlynn. So before I get in started being thankful Im going to tell you about my new adventure. Yes I registered to go to The Art Institute of Pittsburgh. No we are not moving. Yes there is an Art Institute in Salt Lake but Pittsburgh is the only division that all the classes are online. So I still get to be home with my wonderful daughter. Im going there to get my bachelors in photography. Its pretty cool. Im way excited. It will take 4 years to get it but thats ok. I feel good about my choice and I feel like Im doing what I should be. But at the same time I feel like I screwed us over in the future cause now we will have my student loans and Daniels but we will figure it out. Im just waiting to see if I get accepted into the program. I just got an email saying I got a pell grant for 4400 dollars! That will help me get the equipment I need. AH im so happy!! Lets hope I get in.
Ok now things Im thankful for. Today isnt going to be about things its going to be about whom. Today Im very thankful for 3 woman that mean the most to me besides Daniel and Caitlynn. My mom, grandma and grams (my great grandma). I love these woman more then anything. They are my heroes and the people I look up to the most.
My mom is wonderful. Shes been through so much and still is but she just keeps going. She is so strong. She is caring and tries to take care of everyone. She worries more about other people more then she worries about herself. She is so much fun to be around and I love spending time with her. I love my mommy with all my heart and always will.
My grandma is the most amazing person I know. I love her more then words and describe. Shes always been there for me. I was with her most of the time growing up and she always took good care of me. Now I wish I could do the same for her. Right now shes working two jobs every day and I never get to see her which makes me sad. I miss her a lot and I wish she didnt have to work that hard. I dont know how to describe it but being around my grandma just gives me a sense of peace. Im not sure what I will ever do without her and I dont want to know. I told her that she cant die until after Jesus comes cause I cant stand losing her. I really dont have words to describe her. She is just all around amazing.
Grams oh man! There is a lot to say about her. She is always making me giggle. I love her. All growing up not once did she miss a performance or something to that sorts. And she has all the programs to prove it too (shes kind of a pack rat). Grams usually is driving me crazy and Im sure I drive her crazy too but I still love her. Shes a hard worker and always there for you no matter when. Like I said shes always making me laugh with something shes doing. Like once she asked me if a digital camera was out of film ha ha oh my gosh it still makes me laugh. I like to call her the crazy old lady. As the years pass I realize she might not be around for much longer and that makes me sad. Thats why Im trying to spend as much time with her as possible now.
All these woman are wonderful examples in my life and I hope to become like them one day. I love them all even when they drive me crazy. But thats what family is for.

Thankful Day 6.

2010-11-06T14:38:00.001-07:00

Today Im thankful for my religion and the things that I believe in. Yes Im not the best at reading scriptures, praying, going to church, or attending the temple but that doesnt mean I dont believe in them. Im so thankful that Daniel showed me this church for what it really is. I use to hate the LDS church for no reason. But for some reason it just kept showing up in my life. Its always been there. Even when I didnt live in Utah. I never wanted to give it a chance until Daniel came along. I knew Daniel was special and I knew I wanted to be with him. So I figured Ill give this church a chance why not. I remember to this day the first time I decided to read a Book of Mormon. I was staying the night at Daryls (I did that a lot back then) everyone was asleep in the house and I was alone in the basement laying on the couch. I started reading the beginning of it where it talks about the witnesses (Im sure you all know what part of talking about) at the very front before all books. I just remember getting this warm feeling inside and tears streaming down my face. My heart just felt so heavy. At this point in my life I felt like I was close to God but something was missing no matter what I did but at this point I felt like this is what I have been missing in my life. I finished reading the witness statements and started praying asking if this was true, while bawling my eyes out. I knew right away it was. It felt like the Lord was telling me, "finally you see what Ive been trying to show you." After that I decided I was going to join the church not for Daniel but for ME! I knew it was what I was missing and what I needed in my life. Then you all know how the story goes, me and Daniel start dating a month later we get engaged, six months later we get married and a year later we get sealed in the Logan Temple for all time and eternity! Im so thankful for that! Im so happy that he will be mine forever and so will my children. It makes me so happy. I love this church and everything it stands for. I believe everything I am taught. Even though to this day I still havent read the whole Book of Mormon (Im still trying) I know its true and I love reading it. I believe Joseph Smith is a true prophet of God and he saw Jesus and the Father that day in the Scared Grove. I love all the leaders of this church and the things they teach us. Im so thankful for the Lord and the blessing he gives me. Im thankful that he died for me and that he forgives me even though Im not a great person. Im thankful he loves me for who I am and knows that I am trying. I love that the church is in my life and Im happy I get to teach it to my children and I hope they choose to live it and love it like I do. I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and I couldnt be happier!

Thankful Day 5.

2010-11-05T10:13:00.000-07:00

Yep I got it! I caught Caitlynns stomach virus. Man I dont know how she did this. My belly hurt way bad. I couldnt even imagine what it felt like to a one year old and she cant even tell me it hurts. What a brave little girl.
What am I thankful for today? Im thankful for Daryl and Colette. Im thankful for all my family and friends just some of them a little more then others. (there will be more people to come) Daryl and Colette are always there to help us out. I mean they have let us live in their basement for 3 1/2 years. Even though we are pigs and dont clean very well and Im sure that drives them crazy! But they still let us stay here. Colette is amazing. Yes sometimes she drives me crazy but Im sure I drive her crazy too. But hey who in your house doesnt drive you crazy once in awhile? Colette usually makes all the meals. We are getting better at helping or I would like to think so, she is always there to help out and is the best person to have on your side. Like today for example Im not feeling very good and she knows it so she is playing with Caitlynn for a little bit so I dont have to worry about it. The other night when Caitlynn was throwing up. She was downstairs helping us. She pretty wonderful. Daryl is great too. He is always there to help you if you need him. He will always try to put a smile on your face, and he looks at the brighter things in life. I seriously dont think I have ever seen him say a negative thing about another person (well Obama but he doesnt count lol). I love Daryl and Colette with all my heart and Im glad that they are my in laws. I couldnt ask for better ones.

Thankful Day 4.

2010-11-04T15:55:00.001-07:00

Hmm lets see today its going to be a hard time thinking about what Im thankful for since Im really tired and not feeling the best. Last night I went and watch movies with Hollie and Kenzie cause Kenzie was getting surgery today and they wanted to hang out before hand. Well I got home like 230 am and got to sleep at like 3 am. Well about 4 am Caitlynn made this weird noise and I asked Daniel to go check on her and what happened? She threw up every where!!!! It was gross and smelled really bad. Then she sat on my lap and puked about every ten minutes. About 6 am she stopped and went to sleep but I didnt go to sleep till 7 am since I was making sure she was ok. She slept with me and Daniel for awhile and then Daniel put her in her bed. She sleep till about 1030 am. And hasnt really slept since then. She hasnt threw up since she got up but she wont really eat and now its coming out the other end if you get what I mean. Im exhausted and worn out. Plus I think Im getting what she has. Its not to great.
Ok since thats out of the way. Hmm what am I thankful for?! Im going to say being a stay at home mom. Even though days like this are hard I couldnt imagine what it would be like if I had to work the next day or something. Im also thankful I can take care of her and dont have to worry about someone else taking care of my sick baby. I love my job even the bad days but I have to admit I like the good days better. I love that I get to see her all the time and teach her and play with her all the time. A stay at home mom is the hardest most rewarding job out there!

Thankful.

2010-11-03T11:23:00.000-07:00

Even though Im a grumpy pants most days and I like to complain I also am very thankful for the things in my life. Im one of those people that believe in taking one holiday at a time. It drives me nut there is already Christmas stuff out. What about Thanksgiving? Is no one thankful anymore? Dont get me wrong I love Christmas even though this year Im not very excited for it. But at the same time I need to remember Christmas isnt all about presents its about Christ. Anyways back to what I was saying. Since it is November and its Thanksgiving at the end of the month. Everyday Im going to write something Im thankful for. That way I will see all the great blessings in my life and maybe it will help me not be so grumpy. I know its 3 days into November so today I will do three of them!
1. Daniel. I so thankful for him. He is my everything. I dont know how I would survive without him. He is the best husband and father ever and he works so hard for me and Caitlynn. I love him more and more each day. I dont even have words to describe really how I feel for him. Hes just plain amazing, and its a wonderful blessing that I will be with him for all time and eternity.
2. Caitlynn. Of course Im thankful for her! She is my life. Even though most days she drives me crazy I wouldnt change it for anything. She is the smartest, most beautiful, funny, and happy little girl I have ever met. She does the strangest things but that what I love about her. She is amazing. Im so thankful to be her mom and to watch her grow. I love everything about her. Even her fit throwing which she is doing right now lol.
3. Yesterday in the mail we finally got the paper saying we need to register our car by the end of the month. We have been waiting for this and freaking out about it. To register the car it was $167 plus safety and emissions and to pass those we need new tires so we were freaking out thinking how are we going to pay for all of that! Well when the paper came yesterday its said we didnt have to do safety and emissions this year! Thats great! Yes we still need new tires cause our tread on ours is pretty thin but we dont have to worry and try to get them by the end of the month. We can wait until we can afford them. Which I hope is soon. Im very thankful that for whatever reason we only have to pay the taxes on our car this year. Im pretty sure it was the Lords doing which makes me even more thankful.
Well there is my 3. I will be back tomorrow with more. Remeber count your blessings.

Thoughtful.

2010-11-02T13:05:00.000-07:00

I want to blog more I really do but to be honest its just to complain. Seriously complaining is one of the best things Im good at. Want to know what my favorite thing is to complain about?! Other people complaining! Yeah it makes no sense. Im sure I drive Daniel crazy most days but he know how I am and says he loves me no matter what. Which Im thankful for.
Lately everything and almost everyone bugs me! Like seriously irritates me. This even includes myself. I dont know whats wrong with me. Im guessing its the birth control making more moody then I already am and Im a very moody person to start off with. For example a lot of people come to me with their problems. Why? I dont know its always been like this. And usually Im really sensitive and say things like "oh it will be ok." But what am I saying lately? "Thats a stupid reason to be sad." "Suck it up and deal with it." "It your choice to change it." Yeah Im not very nice lately.
Mainly I think its cause lately Ive been thinking about how people arent very accountable for their own choices. Everyone always love to blame someone else for the way they live or something they did. For example Halloween this year. I saw tons of people say "Utah is stupid. Halloween is Sunday not Saturday." "Stupid Mormons ruin everything." Ok for one, Mormons have nothing to do with this! I hate when people blame my religion cause they think its so wrong. Two just cause some people decided to celebrate on Saturday cause that was their choice doesnt mean you have too. I mean there isnt a law saying, No celebrations on Sunday in Utah. Live your own life people and take charge of it and stop blaming other people.
Sorry I just needed to get this stuff out and if I said it on Facebook. I would get attacked and thats not what I want. I just want to say my opinion. I dont care if you agree or not. Thats why its my opinion.
I know I need to stop complaining but like I said its obviously one of my favorite pass times. I think its cause right now this point in time. Life sucks! Plain and simple. I did not think I would ever be where I am now. Where we can hardly pay the bills. We need money for car tires and registration. Christmas is coming up and Im positive its not going to look pretty. Its just stressful you know. People tell me all the time I just need Faith and the Lord will take care of us. But to be honest I dont think I have any. But mostly that is my own fault. I dont pray, read scriptures, go to church or attend the temple like I should. I know I should do these things but I just dont. I know that makes me a horrible person. I feel like cause of the way I act the Lord is not giving me and my family the blessings we need. Is that silly of me? Maybe. I know I need to change the way I am. But for some reason I never do. Its like losing weight. I hate myself but I dont do anything to change it. Like I said before life sucks! But like I heard tons of times before there is always a rainbow after the rain. I sure hope so cause right now its a hurricane.
Once again sorry about this post. Its horrible I know but I needed to get it out. Like my Daily Gem that I get in my email every day said today. "Turn to the Lord. Exercise all of the faith you have in Him. Let Him share your burden. Allow His grace to lighten your load." -Donald L. Hallstrom. It true! Now if only I can do that.

Halloween :D

2010-10-31T20:10:00.002-07:00

Isnt she the cutest kitty ever!! I sure do think so. This Halloween was a little different. This was Caitlynn's 2nd Halloween but this year she actually got to do things cause she wasnt 3 weeks old lol. Of course Caitlynn was a kitty. She picked it out herself. She saw it and said "kitty kitty." SO cute! I decided to be a kitty too to match her. But I wasnt as cute as her lol. Of course Daniel was a mad scientist. Any excuse for him to wear his lab coat and he will take it. (yes he owns a blue lab coat hes a little weird).
Wednesday we carved pumpkins. Well Caitlynn colored on hers :D. Daniels pumpkin was Yoshi its so cute. Mine was going to be a penguin witch but I screwed up so it was just a face lol. Either way they all looked really cute. Caitlynn is so smart she picked up a carving tool and was poking at her pumpkin trying to carve it. It was so stinkin cute!
Thursday we went to a Chick Fil A trunk or treat it was pretty pointless except we got a free kids meal to Texas Roadhouse which Im pretty excited about it lol. But we stood in a line for like an hour and only got like 10 pieces of candy. Probably wont do that again.
Saturday Kenzie and Hollie went with me and Caitlynn to Wal Mart to get candy. It was ok. Plus my friend Harley came with her cute little girl. Wal Mart was crazy but thats ok we got to see Daniel lol. Then we took Caitlynn to our wards trunk or treat and by the time we did this it was pouring rain. So Kenzie was super nice and held the umbrella over me and Caitlynn so Caitlynn wouldnt get wet while I held her and her candy bag. After that we went and got coco cause we were cold. Then me and Kenzie took Caitlynn to the Stake trunk or treat cause Hollie had to go take a nap before she had to work all night. After the trunk or treat Kenzie left to go get ready for her party and me and Caitlynn hung out at the house and passed out candy until Daniel came home from work. When he got home he put on his costume and we went trick or treating around the block with Krystine and Justin. Then took Caitlynn to see Hollies parents and my mom.
Halloween was a lot of fun but it was a lot more crazy then any of the other years and Im sure its just going to get worse with the years to come but thats ok, life is an adventure.
PS all the pictures are on Facebook. You can check them out there
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Am I The Only One?

2010-10-23T12:15:00.000-07:00

Do you ever feel like you dont fit in anywhere? I feel like that all the time! I love my friends dont get me wrong. I just feel like I dont fit in with them. Their life style and mine just dont match up. I mean Im LDS none of them are, Im married none of them are, I have a kid and none of them have that either. Sure I have friend that are married and have kids but they are still different then me and they dont seem like they like to hang out with me anyways. I just wish I had a friend that was like me! Does that makes sense? Some one that loves the church as much as me, someone Caitlynn can have play dates with, and someone that understands how it is to be a stay at home mom. I dont know where I fit in. I cant make friends with people at church cause they are all older then me and have more then one kid. I dont know. Ive just been thinking a lot I dont fit in any where and I really wish I did.

1 Year!!!

2010-10-18T20:38:00.000-07:00

I know Im a little slow. Its only what 10 days after Caitlynn's birthday lol. But these last few weeks have been crazy!!!
On Caitlynn's birthday we didnt really do much for her. Me and Daniel woke her up and gave her her last two Backyardigan stuff animals and told her happy birthday. She just looked at us like "what is your problems." Then I dropped Caitlynn off at Tonielyns and went to Draper with Colette to Kas ans Bills sealing. It was so beautiful! I was so glad that I got to go. Then I went back to Ogden and helped set up for Ka and Bills luncheon. That was a lot of fun. Came home took a nap for like 5 minutes and then went to Brigham for the ring ceremony and reception for Ka and Bill. That was also very nice. Im glad that I got to share their special day.
The next day we had Caitlynns birthday party and I think it went really well. I made a castle cake and it turned out pretty good if I do say so myself. Quite a few people came and she got lots of stuff. It was a nice party.
Monday I took Caitlynn to the doctors for her one year check up. She weighted 20 pounds and is 29 1/2 inches. What a big girl! She got 3 shots and wasnt to happy with that but then Mema gave her an animal cracker and she was better. They then wanted to check her iron so they poked her finger and they milked it like a cow. She just screamed and screamed it was horrible and then after she would look at her thumb and cry. SO sad!!
Other then all of that I have been taking peoples pictures and editing them. Its something new I have started and I love doing it. Im thinking about going to school Im just not sure yet. Nothing other then that is new. Daniel still works at Wal Mart and hes still looking for a better job and Im looking for a job to help us also. Please pray that something will happen cause we are having a hard time financially. But thats ok we still have each other and Caitlynn.
If you want to look at my pictures I have taken or pictures from Caitlynns birthday they are all on facebook (im sure all of you are my friends) I promise I will try to write more so that my posts are super long! :D

1 Week!

2010-10-01T09:53:00.000-07:00

Just one week and my baby will be one! I seriously cry when I think about it. I know I should be happy shes growing and healthy. And I am! But at the same time its so hard. She just growing up so fast. I cant even hold her like a baby in my arms anymore shes to big! My feelings are happiness, sadness, excitement, confusion all in one. Seriously I have no idea where this year went! All I know is that I love her so much!

Slow Down Please!!!

2010-09-08T11:32:00.000-07:00

I am in total shock and almost tears! My little monster is 11 months!! ONE month just ONE and she will be a year old. I seriously do not know where the time went. I really feel like I just had her. She causes more and more trouble everyday but I sure do love her. She is growing and shes also helping me and Daniel grow a little also. Things havent really changed since last month. She could walk if she wanted too but I guess she doesnt yet. She stands by herself but as soon as you look at her or say something she slowly just squats and sits back down. Shes a silly girl. There isnt a day that goes by that she doesnt make me laugh at something she does. I lied last time and said she had 4 teeth well actually she only has two (on the bottom) but her top gum is all swollen and white so another one will pop out any day now Im sure. She now goes to sleep for naps and at night by us just putting her in her crib. She cries for a little but its getting to be less and less. She wont take her Binky anymore but thats ok cause shes almost a year its time to get rid of it anyways. She barley will eat baby food anymore. She will only eat like half but she loves really food. We give her everything and she can eat everything super great. We even started giving her a little milk cause she would cry every time someone had some so we just decided it was time and shes doing fine with it. My love for her grows every day. She is so hard to describe she has her own little personality. If I had only one word to describe her it would be Caitlynn. She sure is an original and I wouldnt want it any other way.
Nothing new is really going on in our lifes. Im still at home and Daniel is still at Wal Mart and its going to stay that way until the Lord decides he wants something else for us.Im just planning Caitlynns birthday party which is so weird to even think about. If you want to come let me know and I will send you an invite :) Daniel is doing great in school hes on two new classes again. He now takes Psychology and Critical Thinking and if you know Daniel you know hes loving that. He found out that by October 2011 he will have his pharm tech which is so exciting cause we will have the first phase over with. Then he just has 3 or 4 years of Pharmacy school and he will be done! It seems forever away but with how fast life seem like its going now a days it might be sooner then I think. I have so many great blessings and Im so grateful for them. Ill try to write more blogs but I cant make any promises ;)

"Looking Through Your Eyes"

2010-08-25T16:40:00.000-07:00

Look at the sky
Tell me what do you see
Just close your eyes
And describe it to me
The heavens are sparkling
With starlight tonight
That's what I see
Through your eyes
I see the heavens
Each time that you smile
I hear your heartbeat
Just go on for miles
And suddenly I know
My life is worth while
That's what I see
Through your eyes
[Chorus:]
Here in the night
I see the sun
Here in the dark
Our two hearts are one
It's out of our hands
We can't stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise
Looking through your eyes
I look at myself
And instead I see us
Whoever I am now
It feels like enough
And I see a girl
Who is learning to trust
That's who I see through your eyes
[Chorus]
And there are some things we don't know
Sometimes a heart just needs to go
And there is so much I'll remember
Underneath the open sky with you forever
[Chorus]
I love this song so much!! Its so perfect for me and Daniel. When we were looking for a song to dance to at our wedding he told me to listen to this song and it has been one of my favortie since then. Im telling you Daniel is the perfect man always has been and always will be. I love him forever and ever and even after that!

4 Years Going Strong!!

2010-08-11T12:06:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow me and Daniel will have been married for 4 years!! Goodness the time has gone by fast. I love Daniel more and more each day! He is an amazing man. I hear people say all the time that there is no good men out there and they are wrong. Daniel is my best friend, my love, my biggest fan and my greatest support. He is my everything. He is always there to help me with whatever I need. He works hard and goes to school to support his family and take care of them. He is the greatest dad I have ever seen. Caitlynn and Me are very lucky girls to have him in our lives.
On Saturday is our temple anniersary. I love that I am sealed to him and that I will be with him forever. I wouldnt want anyone else to spend forever with. He is perfect for me. I love Daniel Bruce Peterson more then anyone could ever know. We have many more years to go.

10 Months Already!!

2010-08-09T09:52:00.000-07:00

Yeah thats what Im thinking! I say it all the time and I cant believe how big she is getting. She gets into more and more trouble everyday. And with Daniel gone at work 5 out of the 7 days its been pretty hard, but I think we are doing ok. Sure the basement is a little messy with toys and clutter and the laundry is piling up but I think we are still doing ok. Caitlynn is so smart for her age and can say many words. She loves to clap now and usually does it when you say clap. She has 4 teeth on the bottom that are almost up all the way. Man are those suckers sharp!!! She amazes me every day at the things she does and she is always making me laugh. For example we got Netflix the other day and she will not watch the shows for kids 0-2 but she will watch the shows for 2-4 shes a dork. Lately her favorite thing do to is pull herself up and stand try to walk and then sit down. She does this like a thousand times a day! I bet she could walk if she had more confidence cause she will stand as long as she thinks your holding on to her she will stand. Yep Im going to have a walking kid soon enough. She I seriously remember this time last year and how I couldnt wait for her to come out it seems like that was only yesterday. Now in 2 months she will be 1! Thats not very far away. I love her so much!! Im so grateful she is in my life and that my family can be together forever!

9 months!!!

2010-07-08T17:40:00.000-07:00

I really cant believe my little baby is 9 months old! Just 3 months and she will be a year old!! Its just so weird. She went to the doctors today and she is doing so good. Shes so smart! I love her so much! She brings me such joy plus such pain, she is a handful lol.
Here are the things Caitlynn can do so far:
Shes 18 ibs 6 ozs and 27 1/2 inches long!! 50% in both growth charts :)
say mama
say dada
say kitty
say tig
waves bye to people
army crawls every where! shes just starting to crawl on her hands and knees but only sometimes
eats all kinds of food
in everything shes not suppose to be in
dances and sings
can drink out of a cup and a straw
loves to play with mommy and daddy
makes a silly smile! Its so goofy but I love it.
has no teeth yet but maybe one day
I know I say this a lot but she is such an amazing blessing! I couldnt ask for a better baby! I love my Caitlynn Suzanne Peterson!!

Days 25-30

2010-07-02T16:31:00.000-07:00

Ok Im just combining the rest of the days cause if not it will be a pretty boring post. Ok it says to describe my day, week, and year in great detail. Well my life isnt that exciting! I do basically the same thing everyday. Wake up take care of Caitlynn, try to work out, try to clean (neither which I do), mostly just sit around. Thats about it. Some days are different some days we go to the store or my grandmas but thats it. Yeah I know excitng.
Whatever tickles my fancy- well I got to see Carrie Underwood. I liked it a lot but I was way high up which scared me and Im terrified of fireworks, always have been, and they were really close so I felt like I was going to have a heart attack but other then that it was nice to spend time with Daniel. Even though I missed Caitlynn. Speaking of Caitlynn shes so freaking smart. Shes almost 9 months old and can say 4 words. She says mama, dada, kitty, and tig. Plus a lot of gibberish lol. I love her!!
My goals for the next year- become a better person, a better mom, a better wife, do more stuff in the church, go to the temple more, get better at cleaning, lose weight.
I hope you all enjoyed the 30 days about me :)

Day 24: Whatever Tickles My Fancy

2010-07-01T00:08:00.000-07:00

Hmmm.....I dont even know what to do to tickle my fancy. Well Eclipse was an amazing movie. It seemed like it went by way fast but I think that with a lot of movies lol. It was the best so far out of the three. I tried to go swimming today but it didnt work. I guess at the Ben Lomond High School swim pool kids arent allowed in the pool under 3 even with a swim diaper. Isnt that what swim diapers are for?? Oh well I will go some where else next time and soon casue Caitlynn really like the swim pool for the minute we were in it. Daniel still hasnt found a job, hopefully he will soon. Not a lot is going on lately. Oh Livi is here!!! YAY! Well that it all!:)

Day 23: A Youtube Video

2010-06-29T22:22:00.000-07:00

If you havent watched the Charlie the Unicorn videos man you are missing out! This is the first one and there is three of them! Check the others out :)

Day 22: A Website

2010-06-28T12:03:00.000-07:00

I love this website. I Can Has Cheezburger!! There is tons of funny stuff there. You can find anything that you think is funny! There is stuff about cats, dogs, celebs, people being stupid! Its great!!

Day 21: A Recipe

2010-06-27T21:30:00.000-07:00

3-Step Cheesecake
2 pkg. (8 oz. each) PHILADELPHIA Cream Cheese, softened 1/2 cup sugar 1/2 tsp. vanilla 2 eggs 1 HONEY MAID Graham Pie Crust (6 oz.) Make It!HEAT oven to 325°F.

BEAT cream cheese, sugar and vanilla with mixer until well blended. Add eggs; beat just until blended.

POUR into crust.

BAKE 40 min. or until center is almost set. Cool. Refrigerate 3 hours

I love cheesecake!!! Ah man its so good! I havent made this kind before but it looks easy and quick which means you get to eat cheesecake faster!! YUM!! Plus I got it off the Kraft website so it has to be good right!!

Day 20: A Hobby Of Mine.

2010-06-26T21:45:00.000-07:00

Like I said in my last post I like to act and sing but I havent done it in 2 years or something like that since I have gotten out of high school. Maybe one day I will do something with it again. I like to make things such as jewelery, hair bows, scrap book. Im not good at anything of these things but thats ok. I also like to take pictures. Well to be honest I like to edit pictures and make them pretty, well I just kind of give them more color. Maybe one day I will learn how to do more. I dont do a lot of hobbies right now because of Caitlynn cause she takes up a lot of my time right now. Ill just have to wait and see how the future goes.

Day 19: A Talent Of Mine

2010-06-25T15:36:00.000-07:00

Ok I be completely honest I really dont think Im all that good at anything. I mean I can do things but they arent the greatest. I love to act and I was in a drama class and drama club every year in high school. I went to drama competitions every year and always did ok. My senior year I was even picked to go to the medal round but I was so nervous I chocked. All 4years I qualified for state but only went my senior year. Ive been in almost every play my school as put up since I was a freshman. I missed a few when I was a freshman because well I was a freshman and I understand that upper class men come first. My senior year I was the drama president and I got the outstanding drama student award. I guess acting can be one of my talents but I dont think Im all that good at it.
I also love to sing. I was in a choir class in all four years of high school, sometimes to classes. There was only a short time my senior year I wasnt in a choir class cause I let other people get to me. I was my girls choir president until I quit that choir cause a bunch of girls in one class was just to much drama to me. I was never in the elite choir but to be honest I dont know if I wasnt in it cause I was wasnt good enough or if the teacher hated me because I really dont think she liked me very well but thats ok cause I didnt like her either. Singing couldnt be a talent but I really dont think Im good at it even though people say I am but people can lie.
Other then those two things Im not good at anything. I cant sew, Im not the great of a cook, Im not very creative. Hey people that know me what do you think my talent is??

Day 18: Whatever Tickles My Fancy!!!

2010-06-24T23:24:00.000-07:00

Good Things to Come
Loved this video! So I thought I would share it, hope you like it too :)

Day 17: A Piece of Art

2010-06-23T14:40:00.001-07:00

Ok I love any piece of art that my Grandma does. She is such an amazing painter. This is a horse that she painted a few years back with an airbrush for the 24th of July. Like I said my Grandma is so talented. I wish I had more pictures of her beautiful art to show you.

Day 16: A Song That Always Makes Me Cry.

2010-06-22T13:31:00.000-07:00

This is mine and Daniels wedding song!! I love this song. When me and Daniel was trying to figure out the song for our wedding we couldnt think of anything. Daniel then told me to listen to this song cause he said when he heard it he always thought of me. Since then everytime I hear it I cry. I love Daniel more then anything! He is the perfect person for me!

Day 15: A Picture Of A Place I Can Never Tire Of

2010-06-21T17:56:00.000-07:00

Even though I hardly go as much as I should be going. I could never tire of going to the Temple. Its just a wonderful place. I choose a picture of the Logan Temple cause its where me and Daniel got sealed so I think its the best one :)

Day 14: A Non- Fictional Book

2010-06-20T15:50:00.000-07:00

This isnt a very long book but its worth reading! I love it! Uchtdorf is just plain amazing!

Day 13: A Fictional Book!

2010-06-19T23:32:00.000-07:00

Eclipse!!!!!I picked this book cause this is what Im reading at the moment. Well for the next 20 pages I have left. I decided to read it since I havent read it in a few years and I like to read books right before the movies come out so I can remember whats going on. I love this book! Its my favorite out of the series! I cant wait for the movie to come out even though I hate most of the actors in it lol. Im just hoping Hollywood doesnt ruin it and that its not to risky cause some parts might be. I guess we will just have to wait and see!

Day 12: Whatever Tickles My Fancy

2010-06-18T21:45:00.000-07:00

I cant really update about whats new cause there isnt alot of stuff that is new in our lives. Caitlynn can now army crawl and she is a terror of course. She also loves to talk a lot! I love this kid she sure does give me a run for my money. I thought I would want another baby in about a year and a half but I dont think so now. I guess we will just have to wait and see. Well please keep praying for Daniel to get a job. Thanks guys!!!

Day 11: A Picture Taken Of Me Recently

2010-06-17T22:10:00.001-07:00

Day 10: A Picture Taken Of Me Over 10 Years Ago!

2010-06-16T21:58:00.001-07:00

Im not sure when this was taken but I sure am cute!! :)

Day 9: A Picture I Took

2010-06-15T17:51:00.000-07:00

Took this in Flaming Gorge this year! I love this picture!!! I think its pretty good!

Day 8: A Picture That Makes Me Sad

2010-06-14T17:30:00.000-07:00

Today was suppose to be a picture that makes me sad or mad but I just went with sad cause Im not mad when I look at this picture. This is the only picture I really have of my "first" child Riley. I miscarried with him back in Nov 08 at 17 weeks. It was seriously one of the hardest thing I have ever been through. Im not sure what will happen but I hope when this life is over he will be there perfect and healthy and mine forever. Even though that happened I am very blessed that two month later I got pregnant with Caitlynn. This experience helped me put more faith in the Lord and trust Him no matter what his plan is for you.

Day 7: A Photo That Makes Me Happy

2010-06-13T22:02:00.000-07:00

Ok any picture of Caitlynn makes me super happy! She is so beautiful! I love her with all my heart!! This picture really makes me happy cause its like the first time that the two most important people in my life met. You can see the tears in Daniels eyes and how happy he is. He is the best dad in the world! I know that Caitlynn thinks that too. I have the greatest family in the world!!

Day 6: Whatever Tickles My Fancy!

2010-06-12T14:36:00.000-07:00

I thought I would update you on whats new in our lives. Not a lot is really new but a few things are.
Lets start with Daniel. He still hasnt got a job. He has a court thing on Thursday to fight for his unemployment. So please pray that they favor his way. We really need some money. Also please pray that he finds a job soon. We would really appreciate it.
Caitlynn is now 8 months old. Like I always say shes getting to big to fast. Most days she drives me and Daniel crazy cause she wont sit still, she is always so loud. She hasnt crawled yet thank goodness but she is getting there. I mean dont get me wrong I love her more then anything and Im very thankful for her. Shes just a handful, and yes I know shes going to get worse. She still has no teeth, not sure why but she will get them one day. She now says Dada and Mama and a bunch of gibberish lol. She is so smart. I cant wait for whats to come even though it scares the crap out of me.
ME!!! Lets see whats new with me?? (Be warn it might be to much information for some people) Well I had to go to the doctor cause I was in tons of pain for awhile and I was losing lots of blood and it was scaring me. Yes we dont have insurance so that bills going to be lovely when it comes but I needed to go in. Well I went and saw my midwife and what was wrong with me? My body was cramping out my IUD. It was almost completely out. So it was good I went to the doctors cause I know this sounds bad but I dont want an oops right now lol. I dont know why my body hates everything! I am now on regular birth control and thankfully my mid wife gave me lots of free samples. Lets just hope they dont mess me up. The last birth control I took a few years ago messed up my hormones so bad we thought I had PCOS. Thank goodness that wasnt the case cause most likely Caitlynn wouldnt be here right now.
Life right now is hard but thats ok cause at least we have each other.

Day 5: Favorite Quote

2010-06-11T16:20:00.000-07:00

Hmm my favortie quote....I dont have a favorite quote. I mean I like little saying about love, or daughters, and Im sure there is tons of awesome quotes by General Authorities but I dont have a favorite. So I think I will go with a favorite saying:
FAMILIES ARE FOREVER!!
Its so true! I am so blessed that I have been able to be sealed to my wonderful Daniel forever and that my childern will be mine forever!I seriously dont know what I would do without them. I love that I have the Church in my life and the many blessings it gives me :)

Day 4: Favorite Book

2010-06-10T21:47:00.000-07:00

Well like the other days I dont think I can pick just one book. Plus I dont like just one book I like authors. So I will name authors and any book they write I love!!!
Stephanie Myers
Mary Higgins Clark
Nora Roberts (just started reading her stuff and love all that I have read so far)
Roald Dahl
Yep these authors are great!

Day 3: Favorite Tv Show (s)

2010-06-09T21:00:00.001-07:00

Ok I dont really watch a lot of tv. Well I do now that Im at Grams but at home I dont really. But there are a few shows that I really like. I couldnt just pick one so I thought eh why not just name them all.

I know thats a lot of shows but and I just said I dont watch a lot of tv but there are all on at different times lol.

Day 2: Favorite Movie

2010-06-08T14:54:00.000-07:00

Ok like music this was a hard one cause I like a lot of movies. I dont like every type of movie though. I hate horror movies and a lot of action movies. I like comedies and romance, but I dont like if its like a freaking porno in the movie. I dont want to see that stuff. I'm trying to do better and not watch rated R movies and I have to admit Im doing pretty good I havent watched one in a while. Ok well lets see I love almost all Disney movies except Snow White. I like all Pixar movies. Cant go wrong with Pixar. I love almost all Adam Sandler movies and Sandra Bullock movies. If it has romance in it and comedy you can bet I will love it. For my favorite movie I picked Scamper the Penguin! I love this movie! I use to watch it all the time when I was little. Its super cute and very educational. I love Penguins!!!!

Day 1: My Favorite Song

2010-06-07T17:35:00.000-07:00

Ok I love music so this is super hard to decided. Plus it changes a lot because like I said I love music. I love all kinds of music, rock (all types), country, pop, R&B, some rap, broadway, classic music, anything really! Ok well I dont like screaming music when you cant understand what they are saying and all you hear is ATHIERHNKJHFIOWFHEJFHEF that what I hear lol. But at this moment I think my favorite song is Only Exception by Paramore. I love Paramore! I love every single one of their songs, and Haley Williams is my hero :). I dont know why I like this song right now its just so cute and it reminds me of Daniel!

30 days of Me!

2010-06-07T17:20:00.000-07:00

I saw this on Kaleena's blog and I thought it would be fun. That way then I have something to blog about and people can learn more about me! Thanks Kaleena for the great idea!

Day 01 - your favorite song
Day 02 - your favorite movie
Day 03 - your favorite television program
Day 04 - your favorite book
Day 05 - your favorite quote
Day 06 - whatever tickles your fancy
Day 07 - a photo that makes you happy
Day 08 - a photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 - a photo you took
Day 10 - a photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 - a photo of you taken recently
Day 12 - whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 - a fictional book
Day 14 - a non-fictional book
Day 15 - a picture of a place I can never tire of
Day 16 - a song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 - an art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)
Day 18 - whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 - a talent of yours
Day 20 - a hobby of yours
Day 21 - a recipe
Day 22 - a website
Day 23 - a YouTube video
Day 24 - whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 - your day, in great detail
Day 26 - your week, in great detail
Day 27 - this month, in great detail
Day 28 - this year, in great detail
Day 29 - hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 30 -- whatever tickles your fancy

Life!

2010-06-05T21:10:00.000-07:00

I figured I would update since I havent in awhile. The reason I havent wrote a blog is cause I didnt want it to sound super down. I mean life hasnt been the bet for us right now. Im trying to make the best out of it but its super hard. Daniel lost his job about a month ago. He files for about 2 jobs a day and we havent even had one call. He filed for unemployment but of course we got denied because they said that he neglected his duties and that his job had every right to fire him. Daniel is trying to fight it but I dont think its going to work. So lets say we have no money. We had to go to the bank and do this thing where they put an extra payment on the end of our car loan so we can skip this month. Even not having to pay the car payment this month we still only have like 100 dollars to our name. Its just really hard. Im sorry Im trying not to be so down.
On the plus side we had a great time in Flaming Gorge and Caitlynn is a wonderful camper. She just loves being outside. Me and Daniel both caught one fish each. The fishing wasnt the greatest but we still had an awesome time with our family.
We love are loving being at Grams. Dont get me wrong I love where we live but its really nice being on our own. I love having my cats around all the time and they are loving just being about to lay around all day on the bed. Though Tigger is going a little stir crazy lol.
Caitlynn is getting so big! She is almost 8 months old. Shes about to crawl. She is now always on her belly,and she is doing it herself. She also can stay on her hands and knees she just doesnt know what to do yet. I am terrified of her crawling she is just a handful now and she never sits still unless she is asleep so I cant even imagine what shes going to be like when she can move. She now says dada all the time and she sometimes says mama but only when shes crying. She is just so crazy! But I love her and can't believe she is this big already. She is the light of my life, and I love her more and more each day.
I'm sorry that this blog was kind of a downer one. I know that things happen for a reason and one day they will get better. I am thankful for everything the Lord does for us. Even though we have no money and we are having a hard time but the Lord is helping us. Some how ever night this week someone has given us dinner, and we arent asking for help. I know that the Lord is doing that and Ive very thankful for that.

Mothers Day, 7 months and Everything In Between.

2010-05-10T11:23:00.000-07:00

Hmm what to start with? Lets start with Caitlynn being 7 months old!!!!!!!! Its so weird to think. In 2 months she will be out as long as she was in!! So weird! She cant crawl yet but she sits all by herself and shes been putting herself on her belly more so maybe she will crawl. We will just have to wait and see. She almost has her first tooth in you can see the tooth its just not out yet. So lets just say shes been pretty grumpy the last few days. She is also getting to be super smart. She can now wave hi and bye. She can say mama but only when shes crying so I dont know if that counts. Its been a wonderful 7 months to see her grow. I love her more and more each day and I thank my Heavenly Father every day for such a great blessing in my life.

Now before I start talking about Mothers Day I will talk about something that isnt so great thats happened in our lives. On Friday Daniel got fired. So he no longer works for Nucor. Its just stupid why he did but we have been waiting for it for weeks cause we knew it was going to happen sooner or later. Another reason Im grateful we live with the in laws. So please pray that Daniel will find another job soon and if you know of anything place that pays good please let us know :)
Ok now to Mothers Day. This was my first one! Ok kind of my first one. Last year Daniel got me presents cause I was pregnant and he said you are a mother its in your belly and you are taking care of it. I think it was just an excuse so he could buy me things with out me feeling guiltily. Anyways this year was pretty good. I got two wonderful books. They were called "The Remarkable Soul Of A Woman" By Dieter F Uchtdorf and "Mothering With Spiritual Power" by Debra Sansing Woods. Both amazing books!!! I would highly recommend both of them.

I also got a beautiful necklace that are two hearts and says "pure in heart". And my mommy got me roses and a wonderful card. It was so cute when Daniel gave me my presents cause he had Caitlynn give them to me one by one. The things we did that day was have breakfast with Daniels family, went to church, and had dinner with my family. To be honest for some reason yesterday I was way emotional. I would cry almost about anything and then I was grumpy as heck the next moment. But even with all the emotions it was still a great day. I love being a mommy. It is the greatest thing I have ever done.
Other then those things not alot has been going on. Just trying to keep the basement clean and I think Im doing a great job at it. Tonight Im going to go see Paramore in concert. LOVE that band. Ill let you know how that goes. :)